So its been a long time since my last Blog entry. Believe me, that doesn't mean that I haven't had plenty to say. Those that know me, know that that is furthest from the truth. I guess what finally happened is I couldn't hold it in any longer. Those that know me well, also know, that when I finally do speak up, its from the heart and has some sort of meaning.
Tonight I was flipping through some old photos from back in middle and high school (yes it goes WAY back) and I thought about how free my mind was back then. (yep deep words huh?) I hadn't been poisoned by much. I think back and remember how great that feeling was. I want it back, and to some degree its very possible. Remember when things didn't bother you? Why do they now? Over the past several weeks I have began transforming the way I think and the way I handle situations. Of course I have many more responsibilities than I did as an adolecent and even as a young adult but does that necessarily mean that I should live with a weighted mind?
Those that know me know that I have always been a positive individual. I hold no regrets, no grudges and I certainly am not bitter about anything. I learned long ago that that does nothing but eat at us and turn us into hard individuals. Besides, what benefit is it to hold such feelings? None - only to remind us of the bad times, and give us an "excuse" as to why we can't be happy in the future. Really, we have no excuse to let others influence us. Our lives are in our own hands, not the hands of others. Remember, no one can make you feel bad without your permission, so don't give it.
I have decided not to let any outside source poison my mind any longer. Not the news, politics, hard days at work, money problems or anything else. These are parts of my life that are beyond my control and I won't let them harden me. My mom lives by this rule, life is 10% of what happens to us and 90% in how we handle it. This is very much the truth - for those that don't believe - think about it for a while.
I don't like to offer unsolicited advice but in this case I would. Make an effort every day to live your life the way YOU want to and learn to accept those things around you that you can not control. Learn not to be influenced by others' negativity and do not let it poison you. To do so only compromises your spirit, soul and self.
Of course, we are all allowed bad days, time to vent, time to blow off steam and be a bit frustrated, but we have to remember not to wallow. Remember who YOU are, and if you don't know yet, take time to find out. :-) You may be surprised as to who you find.

Hi everyone -
Yep its been too long since my last blog - but then I've just been too darn busy to even get to this site. I caught up on a lot of friends' blogs - and am just now beginning to settle into this new home - and its a GORGEOUS one at that. I'm finally ready to start calling it home!
The boxes in the garage are endless! Who would have thought I have so much "crap". Why do I keep this stuff. One of my closest friends just wrote a Blog about binging and purging saved items - and I think that's the road I must go down - as much as it breaks my heart to get rid of some things - I know its completely necessary!
This always gets me thinking about our significance in this world. All of these things that I keep - those things that have sentimental value to me - they would immediately be thrown in the trash without even so much as a thought - if something happened to me. These things ONLY mean something to me. Why am I so nostalgic? Is it because I treasure precious memories? Maybe......
If anyone needs me - I'll be in the garage buried in cardboard....

Ok - a nice calm blog today! Its the birthday of two of my favorite men today! My Scottie and Mookie (my now one year old Corgi) - I'm working from home today and just trying to take it a bit easy. I've been taking on way too much stress lately. Work has been stressful coupled with my upcoming move - and refinancing my own home - whew - its just too much to bare. Luckily I have vacation coming up with my mom starting Saturday the 8th. I'm looking forward to a week away from the stress - although I'll miss my furry friends (Scott included - ha ha ha). It does feel strange that when I get back I'll be all but moved into a new home! Scott will be moving all my boxes while I'm gone (not a bad deal really!) - and when I return I'll be hanging my hat on a "new hat rack".
Ok - enough blog - back to work.....

Well - here I sit - on the edge to a new part of my life. Maybe it isn't a coincidence that I also turned 30 just this past month? Some find such milestones to be depressing - whereas I find it as an opportunity to start a new chapter in my life; and I am. It seems very odd packing up the place I've called home for the last 7 years. This is the place where I finally spread my wings and left "the nest". This is the place where I experienced life as a single white female (isn't that a movie?) and enjoyed the best days of my 20's living with my best friend, Kelly, enjoying parties, days playing hookie from work, days crying on each others shoulder when men would disrupt our lives, days when we were actually sick and had to nurse each other back to health, and of course those days of drinking late at night and talking on the phone - or IMing with some strangers and letting them think they were having cyber sex with some hot young female. (HAHAH - that WAS fun!). These walls also witnessed my marriage - and its subsequent crumble. In the end - I found ultimate happiness here. This is my home. In the coming days I will be packing these memories away in cardboard and moving them to another set of walls to make new memories. Its amazing how I find myself accepting change so easily - but then I shed quiet tears at the same time. I look forward to my new future - as I reluctantly look back at the past.